"The voice of the sea is seductive; never ceasing, whispering, clearing, murmuring, inviting the soul to wander for a spell in the abysses of solitude; to lose itself in mazes of inward contemplation." -The AwakeningThere's so much going on in my head right now and I would normally go to the beach to clear my head, but I can't because I have nothing to drive, so this is my other option. I'm so frustrated at myself...i just missed my doctor's appointment to follow-up my physical/blood test I needed for work. They told me I might have kidney stones because I had "gross hematuria" or enough blood in my urine to be visible without a microscope. If I had kidney stones though, I heard it would be accompanied by pain...which i don't have. That makes me scared because it could be worse...much worse. And I just missed my chance at finding out for sure. Now I have to wait a couple of days for another appointment. UGHH. I'm just hoping that I was severely dehydrated because that could be another cause. I believe in the concept of one's fate ultimately resting in your own hands...but there are times when all you can do...is take a leap of faith.
Haha I just realized that kinda sounds melodramatic. O wells. Ughh I just wanna go beach and let my mind and body wander, allowing the waves wash over me, and give in to the soothing ebb and flow of the currents. I guess I'll just go work out.
~PA~GA~SA~...always...
